When I heard these words, I knew exactly what he meant. It might have been the latest episode of The Writer Files where I heard the guest say something that struck me so much I almost stopped in my tracks: “I tried not being a writer.”
I had a period in my life just like that. I was not becoming the writer I wanted to be. My writer’s circle didn’t appreciate my last short story nearly as much as I did. I desperately needed an escape from teaching English, and writing was turning out to be not the escape plan I had thought. Woe is me and all that. I was heading into middle age, so I surmised I didn’t have much time to turn my video game addiction into my next career. I bought an expensive gaming computer—not a sports car, thankfully—and tried not being a writer.
While I was working on my puzzle game, my wife gave birth to my two girls. That time was a mess to say the least. I tried to work on my game for a few years and got through a good portion of it. That got all derailed when I was up, feeding one of the girls a bottle of milk in the middle of the night. I threw on a NerdWriter1 video to have something else to concentrate on other than the endless emptying of the bottle. It was about the character arcs in both Children of Men and Logan. The embers of my writing creativity started to glow hot again.
That story that fell flat with the writer’s circle, I suddenly knew what to do with it. I got the books recommended in the video and got down to work. The short story turned into a novel, and I was right back to being a writer again.
Suffice to say, I’ve given up gaming for the most part. It was an addiction. It was my addiction that I had to face. No one has ever said on their deathbed, “I wish I had played more video games.” I didn’t want to be that regretful old man that had the time to try to make his dream a reality and didn’t.
That being said, I’m workshopping said novel, Dreaming Alejandro, at the moment. I hope you’ll be all reading it soon enough.
Have you every had an experience similar to this? Leave a comment below. I’d love to hear your answers.